I have struggled for the last 15 years with some of the  Pharisaical  Like was of many in the Independent Baptist movement.  So much so that it has caused some of them to break fellowship with me and that’s fine, but it is so frustrating because I feel that the Lord would and wants to pull me into a way that I could be much more effective today in reaching the lost. I’m struggling with my self and all that I have been instructed in from my teens. Now I’m almost 49. It should not be this way to have to keep fellowship.